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  Chapter Twenty
  I gape at Dr. Greene, my world collapsing around me. A baby. A baby. I don’t
  want a baby . . . not yet. Fuck. And I know deep down that Christian is going
  to freak.
  “Mrs. Grey, you’re very pale. Would you like a glass of water?”
  “Please.” My voice is a barely audible. My mind is racing. Pregnant? When?
  “I take it you’re surprised.”
  I nod mutely at the good doctor as she hands me a glass of water from her
  conveniently placed water cooler. I take a welcome sip.
  “Shocked,” I whisper.
  “We could do an ultrasound to see how advanced the pregnancy is. Judging
  by your reaction, I suspect you’re just a couple of weeks or so from
  conception––four or five weeks pregnant. I take it you haven’t been suffering
  any other symptoms?”
  I shake my head mutely. Symptoms? I don’t think so. “I thought . . . I thought
  this was a reliable form of contraceptive.”
  Dr. Greene arches a brow. “It normally is, when you remember to have the
  shot,” she says coolly.
  “I must have lost track of time.” Christian is going to freak. I know it.
  “Have you been bleeding at all?”
  I frown. “No.”
  “That’s normal for the Depo. Shall we have a look at you? I have time.”
  I nod, bewildered, and Dr. Greene directs me toward a black leather table
  behind a screen.
  “If you’ll just slip off your skirt and underwear, we’ll go from there,” she says
  briskly.
  Underwear? I was expecting an ultrasound scan over my belly. Why do I need
  to remove my panties? I shrug in consternation then quickly do as she says
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  “That’s good.” Dr. Greene appears at the end of the table, pulling the
  ultrasound machine closer. It’s a hi-tech stack of computers. Sitting down,
  she positions the screen so that we can both see it and jogs the trackball on
  the keyboard. The screen pings into life.
  “If you could lift and bend your knees, then part them wide,” she says matterof-
  factly.
  What?
  “This is a transvaginal ultrasound. If you’re only just pregnant, we should be
  able to find the baby with this.” She holds up a long white probe.
  Oh—you have got to be kidding!
  “Okay,” I mutter, mortified, and do as she says. Greene pulls a condom over
  the wand and lubricates it with clear gel.
  “Right, Mrs. Grey, if you could relax.”
  Relax? I’m pregnant, damn it! How do you expect me to relax? I blush, and
  endeavor to find my happy place . . . which has relocated somewhere near
  the lost Island of Atlantis. Slowly and gently she inserts the probe. Holy fuck.
  All I can see on the screen is the visual equivalent of white noise—
  although it’s more sepia in color. Slowly, Dr. Greene moves the probe about,
  and it’s very disconcerting.
  “There,” she murmurs. She presses a button, freezing the picture on the
  screen, and points to a tiny blip in the sepia storm. It’s a little blip. There’s a
  tiny little blip in my belly. Tiny. Wow. I forget my discomfort as I stare shellshocked
  at the blip.
  “It’s too early to see the heartbeat, but yes, you’re definitely pregnant. Four or
  five weeks, I would say.” She frowns. “Looks like the shot ran out early. Oh
  well, that happens.”
  What! I am too stunned to say anything. The little blip is a baby. A real honest
  to goodness baby. Christian’s baby. My baby. Holy cow . A baby!
  “Would you like me to print out a picture for you?”
  I nod, still unable to speak, and Dr. Greene presses a button. Then she gently
  removes the wand and hands me a paper towel to clean myself.
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  ascertain the exact age of your baby and set a likely due date. You can get
  dressed now.”
  “Okay.” I’m reeling and I dress hurriedly. I have a blip, a little blip. When I
  emerge from behind the screen, Dr. Greene is back at her desk.
  “In the meantime, I’d like you to start this course of folic acid and
  multivitamins. Here’s a leaflet of dos and don’ts.” As she hands me a
  package of pills and a leaflet, she continues to talk at me, but I’m not
  listening. I’m in shock. Overwhelmed. Surely I should be happy. Surely I
  should be thirty . . . at least. This is too soon—far too soon. I try to quell my
  rising sense of panic.
  I wish Dr. Greene a polite goodbye and head in a daze back down to the exit
  and out into the cool fall afternoon. I’m gripped suddenly by a creeping cold
  and deep sense of foreboding. Christian is going to freak, I know, but how
  much and how far, I have no idea. His words haunt me. “I’m not ready to
  share you yet.” I pull my jacket tighter around me, trying to shake off the cold.
  share you yet.” I pull my jacket tighter around me, trying to shake off the cold.
  Sawyer leaps out of the SUV and holds open the door. He frowns when he
  sees my face, but I ignore his concerned expression.
  “Where to, Mrs. Grey?” he asks gently.
  “SIP.” I nestle into the back of the car, closing my eyes and resting my head
  on the back seat. I should be happy. I know I should be happy. But I’m not.
  This is too early. Far too early. What about my job? What about SIP? What
  about Christian and me? No. No. No. We’ll be fine. He’ll be fine. He loved
  baby Mia—I remember Carrick telling me—he dotes on her now. Perhaps I
  should warn Flynn . . . Perhaps I shouldn’t tell Christian. Perhaps I . . .
  perhaps I should end this. I halt my thoughts on that dark path, alarmed at the
  direction they’re taking. Instinctively my hand sweeps down to rest
  protectively over my belly. No. My little Blip. Tears spring to my eyes. What
  am I going to do?
  A vision of a little boy with copper-colored hair and bright gray eyes, running
  through the meadow at the new house invades my thoughts, teasing and
  tantalizing me with possibilities. He’s giggling and squealing with delight as
  Christian and I chase him. Christian swings him high in his arms and carries
  him on his hip as we walk hand in hand back to the house.
  My vision morphs into Christian turning away from me in disgust. I’m fat and
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  mirrors, away from me, the sound of his footsteps echoing off the silvered
  glass, walls, and floor. Christian . . . I jerk awake. No. He’s going to freak out.
  When Sawyer pulls up outside SIP, I leap out and head into the building.
  “Ana, great to see you. How’s your dad?” Hannah asks as soon as I reach
  my office. I regard her coolly.
  “He’s better, thank you. Can I see you in my office?”
  “Sure.” She looks surprised as she follows me in. “Is everything okay?”

  “I need to know if you’ve moved or cancelled any appointments with Dr.
  Greene.”
  “Dr. Greene? Yes, I have. About two or three of them. Mostly because you
  were in other meetings or overrunning. Why?”
  Because now I’m fucking pregnant! I scream at her in my head. I take a
  deep, steadying breath. “If you move any appointments, will you make sure I
  know? I don’t always check my calendar.”
  “Sure,” Hannah says quietly. “I’m sorry. Have I done something wrong?”
  I shake my head and sigh loudly. “Can you make me some tea?
  Then let’s discuss what’s been happening while I’ve been away.”
  “Sure. I’ll jump to it.” Brightening, she heads out of the office. I gaze after her
  departing figure. “You see that woman?” I talk quietly to the Blip. “She’s the
  reason you’re here.” I pat my belly then feel like a complete idiot, because I
  am talking to the blip. My tiny little Blip. I shake my head, exasperated at
  myself and at Hannah . . . though deep down I know I can’t really blame
  Hannah. Despondently I switch on my computer. There’s an e-mail from
  Christian.
  From: Christian Grey
  Subject: Missing you
  Date: September 13, 2011 13:58
  To: Anastasia Grey
  Mrs. Grey
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  I’ve been back in the office for only three hours, and I’m missing you already.
  Hope Ray has settled in okay at the Northwest. Mom is going to see him this
  afternoon and check up on him.
  I’l col ect you around six this evening, and we can go and see him before
  heading home.
  Sound good?
  Your loving husband
  Christian Grey
  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.
  I type a quick response.
  From: Anastasia Grey
  Subject: Missing you
  Date: September 13, 2011 14:10
  To: Christian Grey
  Sure.
  x
  Anastasia Grey
  Commissioning Editor, SIP
  From: Christian Grey
  Subject: Missing you
  Date: September 13, 2011 14:14
  To: Anastasia Grey
  Are you okay?
  Christian Grey
  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.
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  No, Christian, I’m not. I’m freaking out about you freaking out. I don’t know
  what to do. But I am not going to tell you via e-mail.
  From: Anastasia Grey
  Subject: Missing you
  Date: September 13, 2011 14:17
  To: Christian Grey
  Fine. Just busy.
  See you at six.
  x
  Anastasia Grey
  Commissioning Editor, SIP
  When will I tell him? Tonight? Maybe after sex? Maybe during sex. No, that
  might be dangerous for both of us. When he’s asleep? I put my head in my
  hands. What the hell am I going to do?
  ~o0o~
  “Hi,” Christian says warily as I climb into the SUV.
  “Hi,” I murmur.
  “What’s wrong?” He frowns. I shake my head as Taylor sets off toward the
  hospital.
  “Nothing.” Maybe now? I could tell him now when we’re in a contained space
  and Taylor is with us.
  “Is work all right?” Christian continues to probe.
  “Yes. Fine. Thanks.”
  “Ana, what’s wrong?” His tone is a little more forceful. I chicken out.
  “I’ve just missed you, that’s all. And I’ve been worried about Ray.”
  Christian visibly relaxes. “Ray’s good. I spoke to Mom this afternoon and
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  Christian grasps my hand. “Boy, your hand is cold. Have you eaten today?”
  I blush.
  “Ana,” Christian scolds me, annoyed.
  Well, I haven’t eaten because I know you’re going to go bat-shit crazy when
  I tell you I’m pregnant.
  “I’ll eat this evening. I haven’t really had time.”
  He shakes his head in frustration. “Do you want me to add ‘feed my wife’ to
  the security detail’s list of duties?”
  “I’m sorry. I’ll eat. It’s just been a weird day. You know, moving Dad and all.”
  His lips press into a hard line, but he says nothing. I gaze out the window.
  Tell him! My subconscious hisses. No. I am a coward. Christian interrupts
  my reverie. “I may have to go to Taiwan.”
  “Oh. When?”
  “Later this week. Maybe next week.”
  “Okay.”
  “I want you to come with me.”
  I swallow. “Christian, please. I have my job. Let’s not rehash this argument
  again.”
  He sighs and pouts like a sulky teenager. “Thought I’d ask,” he mutters
  petulantly.
  “How long will you go for?”
  “Not more than a couple of days. I wish you’d tell me what’s bothering you.”
  How can he tell? “Well, now that my beloved husband is going away . . .”
  Christian kisses my knuckles. “I won’t be away for long.”
  “Good.” I smile weakly at him.
  Ray is much brighter and a lot less grumpy when we see him. I’m touched by
  his quiet gratitude to Christian, and for a moment I forget about my
  impending news as I sit and listen to them talk fishing and the Mariners. But
  he tires easily.
  “Daddy, we’ll leave you to sleep.”
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  too, Christian. She was very reassuring. And she’s a Mariners fan.”
  “She’s not crazy about fishing, though,” Christian says wryly as he rises.
  “Don’t know many women who are, eh?” Ray grins.
  “I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?” I lean over and kiss him. My subconscious
  purses her lips. That’s provided Christian hasn’t locked you away . . . or
  worse. My spirits take a nosepe.
  “Come.” Christian holds out his hand, frowning at me. I take it and we leave
  the hospital.
  I pick at my food. It’s Mrs. Jones’s chicken chasseur, but I’m just not hungry.
  My stomach is knotted in a tight ball of anxiety.
  “Damn it! Ana, will you tell me what’s wrong?” Christian pushes his empty
  plate away, irritated. I gaze at him. “Please. You’re driving me crazy.”
  I swallow and try to subdue the panic rising in my throat. I take a deep
  steadying breath. It’s now or never. “I’m pregnant.”
  He stills, and very slowly all the color drains from his face. “What?”
  he whispers, ashen.
  “I’m pregnant.”
  His brow furrows with incomprehension. “How?”
  I blink at him. How . . . how? What sort of ridiculous question is that? I blush,
  and give him a quizzical how-do-you-think look. His stance changes
  immediately, his eyes hardening to flint.
  “Your shot?” he snarls.
  Oh shit.
  “Did you forget your shot?”
  I just gaze at him unable to speak. Jeez, he’s mad—really mad.
  “Christ, Ana!” He bangs his fist on the table, making me jump, and stands so

  abruptly he almost knocks the dining chair over. “You have one thing, one
  thing to remember. Shit! I don’t fucking believe it. How could you be so
  stupid?”
  Stupid! I gasp. Shit. I want to tell him that the shot was ineffective, but words
  fail me. I gaze down at my fingers. “I’m sorry,” I whisper.
  “Sorry? Fuck!” he says again.
  “I know the timing’s not very good.”
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  “Not very good!” he shouts. “We’ve known each other five fucking minutes. I
  wanted to show you the fucking world and now . . . Fuck. Diapers and vomit
  and shit!” He closes his eyes. I think he’s trying to contain his temper and
  losing the battle.
  “Did you forget? Tell me. Or did you do this on purpose?” His eyes blaze and
  anger emanates off him like a force field.
  “No,” I whisper. I can’t tell him about Hannah—he’d fire her. I know.
  “I thought we’d agreed on this!” he shouts.
  “I know. We had. I’m sorry.”
  He ignores me. “This is why. This is why I like control. So things like this don’t
  come along and fuck everything up.”
  Thing . . . little Blip is not a thing. “Christian, please don’t shout at me.” Tears
  start to slip down my face.
  “Don’t start with waterworks now,” he snaps. “Fuck.” He runs a hand through
  his hair, pulling at it as he does. “You think I’m ready to be a father?” His
  voice catches, and it’s a mixture of rage and panic. And it all becomes clear,
  the fear and loathing writ large in his eyes—his rage is that of a powerless
  adolescent. Oh Fifty, I am so sorry. It’s a shock for me, too.
  “I know neither one of us is ready for this, but I think you’ll make a wonderful
  father,” I choke. “We’ll figure it out.”
  “How the fuck do you know!” he shouts, louder this time. “Tell me how!” His
  gray eyes burn, and so many emotions cross his face. It’s fear that’s most
  prominent.
  “Oh fuck this!” Christian bellows dismissively and holds his hands up in a
  gesture of defeat. He turns on his heel and stalks toward the foyer, grabbing
  his jacket as he leaves the great room. His footsteps echo off the wooden
  floor, and he disappears through the double doors into the foyer, slamming
  the door behind him and making me jump once more.
  All I am left with is the silence—the still, silent emptiness of the great room. I
  shudder involuntarily as I gaze numbly at the closed doors. He’s walked out
  on me. Shit! His reaction is far worse than I could ever have imagined. I push
  my plate away and fold my arms on the table, letting my head sink into them
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  “Ana, dear.” Mrs. Jones is hovering beside me.
  Oh. I sit up quickly, dashing the tears from my face.
  “I heard. I’m sorry,” she says gently. “Would you like an herbal tea or
  something?”
  “I’d like a glass of white wine.”
  Mrs. Jones pauses for a fraction of a second, and I remember the Blip. Now I
  can’t drink alcohol. Can I? I must study the dos and don’ts Dr. Greene gave
  me.
  “I’ll get you a glass.”
  “Actually, I’ll have a cup of tea, please.” I wipe my nose. She smiles kindly.
  “Cup of tea coming up.” She clears our plates and heads over to the kitchen
  area. I follow her and perch on a stool, watching her prepare my tea.
  She places a steaming mug in front of me. “Is there anything else I can get for
  you, Ana?”
  “No, this is fine, thank you.”
  “Are you sure? You didn’t eat much.”
  I gaze up at her. “I’m just not hungry.”
  “Ana, you should eat. It’s not just you anymore. Please let me fix you
  something. What would you like?” She looks so hopefully at me. But really, I
  can’t face anything.
  My husband has just walked out on me because I’m pregnant, my father has
  been in a major car accident, and there’s Jack Hyde the nutcase trying to
  make out that I sexually harassed him. I suddenly have an uncontrollable urge
  to giggle. See what you’ve done to me, Little Blip! I caress my belly.
  Mrs. Jones smiles indulgently at me. “Do you know how far you are?” she
  asks softly.
  “Very newly pregnant. Four or five weeks, the doctor isn’t sure.”
  “If you won’t eat, then at least you should rest.”
  I nod, and taking my tea, I head into the library. It’s my refuge. I dig my
  BlackBerry out of my purse and contemplate calling Christian. I know it’s a
  shock for him—but he really did overreact. When does he not overreact? My
  subconscious arches a finely plucked brow at me. I sigh. Fifty Shades of
  fucked up.
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  “Yes, that’s your daddy, Little Blip. Hopefully he’ll cool off and come back . . .
  soon.”
  I pull out the leaflet of dos and don’ts and sit down to read. I can’t
  concentrate. Christian’s never walked out on me before. He’s been so
  thoughtful and kind over the last few days, so loving and now . . . Suppose he
  never comes back? Shit! Perhaps I should call Flynn. I don’t know what to do.
  I’m at a loss. He’s so fragile, in so many ways, and I knew he’d react badly to
  the news. He was so sweet this weekend. All those circumstances way
  beyond his control, yet he managed fine. But this news was too much.
  Ever since I met him, my life has been complicated. Is it him? Is it the two of
  us together? Suppose he doesn’t get past this? Suppose he wants a
  porce? Bile rises in my throat. No. I mustn’t think this way. He’ll be back. He
  will. I know he will. I know in spite of all the shouting and his harsh words he
  loves me . . . yes. And he’ll love you, too, Little Blip.
  Leaning back in my chair, I start to doze.
  I wake cold and disorientated. Shivering I check my watch; eleven in the
  evening. Oh yes . . . You. I pat my belly. Where’s Christian? Is he back?
  Stiffly I ease out of the armchair and go in search of my husband. Five
  minutes later, I realize he’s not home. I hope nothing’s happened to him.
  Memories of the long wait when Charlie Tango went missing flood back.
  No, no, no. Stop thinking like this. He’s probably gone to . . . where? Who
  would he go and see? Elliot? Or maybe he’s with Flynn. I hope so. I find my
  BlackBerry back in the library, and I text him.
  *Where are you?*
  I head into the bathroom and run myself a bath. I am so cold.
  He still hasn’t returned when I climb out of the bath. I change into one of my
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  Little Blip’s room. I am startled by the thought and stand in the doorway,
  contemplating this reality. Will we paint it blue or pink? The sweet thought is

  soured by the fact that my husband is so pissed at the idea and is absent.
  Grabbing the duvet from the spare bed, I head into the great room to keep
  vigil.
  Something wakes me. A sound.
  “Shit!”
  It’s Christian in the foyer. I hear the table scrape across the floor again.
  “Shit!” he repeats, more muffled this time.
  I scramble up in time to see him stagger through the double doors. He’s
  drunk. My scalp prickles. Shit, Christian drunk? I know how much he hates
  drunks. I leap up and run toward him.
  “Christian, are you okay?”
  He leans against the jamb of the foyer doors. “Mrs. Grey,” he slurs. Crap.
  He’s very drunk. I don’t know what to do.
  “Oh . . . you look mighty fine, Anastasia.”
  “Where have you been?”
  He puts his fingers to his lips and smiles crookedly at me. “Shh!”
  “I think you’d better come to bed.”
  “With you . . .” He snickers.
  Snickering! Frowning, I gently put my arm around his waist because he can
  hardly stand, let alone walk. Where has he been? How did he get home?
  “Let me help you to bed. Lean on me.”
  “You are very beautiful, Ana.” He leans onto me and sniffs my hair, almost
  knocking both of us over.
  “Christian, walk. I am going to put you to bed.”
  “Okay,” he says as if he’s trying to concentrate.
  We stumble down the corridor and finally make it into the bedroom.
  “Bed,” he says, grinning.
  “Yes, bed.” I maneuver him to the edge, but he holds me.
  “Join me,” he says.
  “Christian, I think you need some sleep.”
  “And so it begins. I’ve heard about this.”
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  I frown. “Heard about what?”
  “Babies mean no sex.”
  “I’m sure that’s not true. Otherwise we’d all come from one-child families.”
  He gazes down at me. “You’re funny.”
  “You’re drunk.”
  “Yes.” He smiles, but his smile changes as he thinks about it, and a haunted
  expression crosses his face, a look that chills me to the bone.
  “Come on, Christian,” I say gently. I hate his expression. It speaks of horrid,
  ugly memories that no child should see. “Let’s get you into bed.” I push him
  gently and he flops down onto the mattress, sprawling in all directions and
  grinning up at me, his haunted expression gone.
  “Join me,” he slurs.
  “Let’s get you undressed first.”
  He grins widely, drunkenly. “Now you’re talking.”
  Holy cow. Drunk Christian is cute and playful. I’ll take him over mad-as-hell
  Christian anytime.
  “Sit up. Let me take your jacket off.”
  “The room is spinning.”
  Shit . . . is he going to throw up? “Christian, sit up!”
  He smirks up at me. “Mrs. Grey, you are a bossy little thing . . .”
  “Yes. Do as you’re told and sit up.” I put my hands on my hips. He grins
  again, struggles up onto his elbows then sits up in a most unChristian-like,
  gawky fashion. Before he can flop down again, I grab his tie and wrestle him
  out of his gray jacket, one arm at a time.
  “You smell good.”
  “You smell of hard liquor.”
  “Yes . . . bour-bon.” He pronounces the syllables with such exaggeration that I
  have to stifle a giggle. Discarding his jacket on the floor beside me, I make a
  start on his tie. He rests his hands on my hips.
  “I like the feel of this fabric on you, Anastasia,” he says, slurring his words.
  “You should always be in satin or silk.” He runs his hands up and down my
  hips then jerks me forward, pressing his mouth against my belly.
  “And we have an invader in here.”
  I stop breathing. Holy cow. He’s talking to Little Blip.
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  Oh my. Christian looks up at me through his long dark lashes, gray eyes
  blurred and cloudy. My heart constricts.
  “You’ll choose him over me,” he says sadly.
  “Christian, you don’t know what you’re talking about. Don’t be ridiculous—I
  am not choosing anyone over anyone. And he might be a she.”
  He frowns. “A she . . . Oh God.” He flops back down on to the bed and covers
  his eyes with his arm. I have managed to loosen his tie. I bend, undo one
  shoelace, and yank off his shoe and sock. I make a start on the other and
  succeed in no time. When I stand, I see why I’ve met no resistance—
  Christian has passed out completely. He’s sound asleep and snoring softly.
  I stare at him. He’s so goddamned beautiful, even drunk and snoring. His
  sculptured lips parted, one arm above his head, ruffling his messy hair, his
  face relaxed. He looks young—but then he is young; my young, stressed out,
  drunk, unhappy husband. The thought lies heavy in my heart. Well, at least
  he’s home. I wonder where he went. I’m not sure I have the energy or the
  strength to move him or undress him any further. He’s on top of the duvet,
  too. Heading back into the great room, I pick up the duvet I was using and
  bring it back to our bedroom.
  He’s still fast asleep, still wearing his tie and his belt. I climb onto the bed
  beside him, loosen his tie further then remove it and gently undo the top
  button of his shirt. He mumbles something incoherent in his sleep, but he
  doesn’t wake. Carefully, I unbuckle his belt and pull it through the belt loops,
  and after some difficulty it’s off. His shirt has come dislodged from his pants,
  revealing a hint of his happy trail. I can’t resist. I bend and kiss it. He shifts,
  flexing his hips forward, but stays asleep.
  I sit up and gaze at him again. Oh Fifty, Fifty, Fifty . . . what am I going to do
  with you? I brush my fingers through his hair. It’s so soft. I lean down and kiss
  his temple.
  “I love you, Christian. Even when you’re drunk and you’ve been out God
  knows where, I love you. I’ll always love you.”
  “Hmmm,” he murmurs. I kiss his temple once more, then get off the bed, and
  cover him up with the spare duvet. I can sleep beside him, sideways across
  the bed . . . yes, I’ll do that.
  393 | P a g e
  Fifty Shades Freed
  First I’ll sort out his clothes, though. I shake my head and pick up his socks
  and tie, and fold his jacket over my arm. As I do, his BlackBerry falls to the
  floor. I pick it up and inadvertently unlock it. It opens on the texts screen. I can
  see my text, and above it, another. Fuck. My scalp prickles.
  *It was good to see you. I understand now.
  Don’t fret. You’ll make a wonderful father.*
  It’s from her. Mrs. Elena Bitch Troll Robinson. Shit. That’s where he went.
  He’s been to see her.
  394 | P a g e
  394 | P a g e
  E L JAMES
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